Falling Away

so one of my new favorite commercials of all time is the new sprite commercial where the guys are sitting next to the basketball court and then they jump and the court is a pool, but the court at the same time...i probably explained it terribly, but it is a really cool commercial and the song that goes with it is pretty good too [see video below post]...so today i undertook the task of moving everything in my room, cleaning it and going through everything. i think i did a pretty good job today, considering that i have all the stuff from my room plus all the stuff i brought back with me from college. that and the fact that i go through everything that i touch, and at around midnight tonight i went into my side closet/attic and started going through all that stuff as well. thats where i am right now, i just went through all of that stuff, and though i am going to throw away a bunch of stuff, the memories of the stuff that i really enjoyed growing up just hit me. everybody talks with me about what i am going to do now, and how i have to grow up and get a job and be an adult, but until i really started looking at this stuff, it didnt really hit me. where did the years go where i could just hang out at home and play with my toys? i have to worry about providing for myself if i dont get into grad school. i have loans to pay off, and i dont know what i am going to do with my life. i know God has me in his hands, but its so crazy to think that 10 years ago, i was about to graduate from the 5th grade. i didnt have a care in the world. just to look back at some of the things that meant a lot to me, the stuff and the trinkets, not even to think about all of the people and events that have made me who i am today, and it just blows my mind about humanity. im falling away from being young, im falling into adulthood, and i wish i was falling the other way.